My reasons for starting this are very simple. I need to start holding myself accountable, and I have not been for years. YEARS. Writing that out made my heart fall into my stomach. I know there is a healthy fit girl in here, she's just trapped underneath all of this flab. She's been screaming for a long time now, but I've been ignoring her. I have been drowning her out for such a long time.Why? I'm not entirely too sure, but I do know this, if I continued on the road that I had been on I would have had many more problems, BIGGER (pun intended) problems.
Health is important, especially when you have a family relying on you to be there for them. I keep thinking to myself, what if I had just let myself go completely? What if I just kept eating myself into oblivion, ignoring the tightness around my waist when I'm wearing jeans, ignoring how much larger my clothing got, ignoring that there was no separation between my neck and my chin. What about my very active kids? Who was going to play with them outside? Who was going to carry them upstairs to their bed when they fell asleep in my arms?
I have been angry with myself for not making my health and over all well being a priority. I suppose that doesn't help, but it definitely lit a fire under my bum to do something about it.
Sure, I have slip ups. I sometimes eat something that I know I shouldn't. I sometimes (much like yesterday) park my big butt on the couch and veg out, but it's not very often. The next day, I jump right back into it. The only person that has control of you is YOU. YES YOU! Imagine that! Having a strong support system and someone to motivate you helps as well, but ultimately, you are the one putting in the work to change your body. Nobody else but you.
I have started off slow, and I realize there is no defeat in that. Working towards a greater goal is what I am doing here. Life isn't about how fast you run or how high you climb, It's all about how good you bounce. Keep rolling with the punches. Keep putting your best self forth.
Life will always knock you down, but it's your choice to get back up.
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